Struggling

May 5, 2008

I’m not gonna lie.  (Well, not about this anyway).  I’m struggling.  After 4 months of virtually pain-free and illness-free training, I have hit a bump in the road.  And I’m a little pissed off about it.  I have a pain in my knee that resembles ITBS.  I’m walking a little gimpily, running not at all, and my knee is NOT begging me to be pushing circles on a bike.  So i guess it’s a good thing my new Splish suit arrived this weekend and I invested in much-needed new goggles.

Yesterday I was ridiculous.  I would sit there icing it and reading about what it COULD be or what it SEEMED like on the internet while intermittently bursting into tears.  My coach suggested I see an ART therapist which I thought meant an art therapist – like the kind who paint and draw.  So I sat around the house contemplating the potential benefits of art therapy for my leg until I realized that ART was an acronym not a way of emphasizing the word art.  It didn’t help that the email contained only two sentences: “Go see an ART therapist.  Trust me.”.  And just so you know how much I apparently trust my coach, I was all ready to go out and purchase a set of watercolor paints in order to take my training to the next level.  It’s sick, really…

Anyway, I called an A.R.T. therapist – can you believe she doesn’t work on Sundays???  WTF??!?!  Doesn’t she know this is an ATHLETIC EMERGENCY!!!??  I NEED HER ART!!  We also had dinner at our friends’ house last night.  One of them is a chiropractor and pointed out that my fibula on the painful leg is considerably further forward than on my other leg.  Of course I could just see the joyous fire in her eyes when she said “oh yeah, I could just pop that right back into place”.  I backed away slowly saying “no thanks, I’ll try watercolors first…”.  Call me crazy, but I’d rather paint my emotions any day than have someone moving my bones around in ways that just feel….WRONG.  I hate being adjusted.  If I started a religion, the basic premise would be loving peace, triathlon for all, and NO chiropractic adjustments.  To be fair, I’ve seen it work wonders for some people, but I am just not a fan of it for MY body, thanks.

Hopefully today either the art therapist or the A.R.T. therapist will call me back and I can get to work on fixing this problem.  I have a big training week ahead and I am just not in the mood to miss out on any of the good stuff.

7 Responses to “Struggling”

  1. marit c-l Says:

    Okay Ness – now’s the time for some positive good healing vibes! Stay as positive as you can, realize that you need to see your watercolor therapist, and keep moving forward. This too shall pass, I know. I know it sucks :(, but just hang in there…. try to hang on until you see the therapist – and then you can decide how to react. You’re in “no-mans land” – where you know that something is up, but you don’t quite know what it is…. Not a very fun place to be. Just hang in there…

    Myself, Nate, and The House Monster are cheering you on!

  2. Jennifer Harrison Says:

    Ness,
    I agree with Marit, it is time for me to send YOU some healthy & healing vibes. These friggin niggles that always wear people down are TOUGH mentally & physically. But, I had to chuckle at the ART therapy – LOVE IT. I never thought that someone would think it was “painting”, but OF COURSE!. 🙂 HEAL fast and keep the mind busy in GOOD and positive thoughts…it helps.

  3. Beth Says:

    UGH!! I can feel your pain (both literally and figuratively) as I’ve struggled with ITBS before myself. Hang in there though!! ART therapy comes highly recommended from me as well – especially for things like ITBS. Sending MANY good healing vibes and thinking of you lots! Just remember – IT WILL GET BETTER – something that is easy to forget when we are in a lot of pain…

  4. Danielle Says:

    Oh, Ness, you and Rachel Ross should start a support group with your ITBS and Splish suits. Hope the ART helps…by the way, my sister was an undergraduate art major and seriously considered becoming an art therapist (the water color kind!) before she went into teaching. Plus my college roommates’ mother is a child psychiatrist and always had them draw out their emotions when they were kids. So, I always think the same thing about A.R.T. therapy. I am with you on the chiropractic–I’d rather draw and paint and sculpt even though I have not a drop of talent in me that way. Sister got it all!
    -Danielle

  5. angie Says:

    Hey Ness,
    Hang tough. Waiting and wondering, I think, is the WORST. I had some major niggles throughout the winter but once I knew what they were (got the HMO to approve a MRI) I could tackle them head on and make adjustments where I needed them–and my chiropractor, massages, and myotherapy all had their place. My chiropractor is a past Ironman and post Olympian with some great recommendations for the swim and bike–so he kept me going and going. Chiropractic worked for me–but, yes, it’s not for everyone.

    ART therapy–you crack me up.

    Kodiacbear

  6. your darling coach Says:

    Every athlete deals with injury and pain. I think all of us have done the same thing – everything was fine, we were healthy then one day BOOM – we get a pain that won’t go away and it literally feels the end of the world. We cry, we have ice burn on our legs and drive our spouses nuts with stories of woe is me. But you know what, it always gets better. And while waiting is hard, the best things for us often come with a long wait. Every obstacle is an opportunity to either get stronger at something else or learn something more about ourselves. Or color a few pictures. I’ll send you a coloring book.

  7. mary Says:

    I ahve been through a torn achilles and your words bring back the memories. The frustration, the research, the please not now feeling. There is a light at the end fo the tunnel. As I look back my injury was one of the best things that ever happened to me. It was hard, but we got through it. And so will YOU!


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